Alright lads, ex and current marines I need some advice. Long read, I apologies.
For around 4-5 years I've been considering joining the marines, I am currently 22, have a new born daughter a few months old, and an now recently ex fiancé.
Firstly, me and the ex misses have been basically a concurrent argument for the past 1 and a bit, usually each week or two spending 95% of the time not talking, arguing and then odd smile and laugh.
A few months after finding our we where having a baby I of course asked her to marry me to let her know that she was secure w me and that I wanted her and our daughter, can i add when I asked also ended up having an argument before but never the less I asked because I wanted them in my life and wanted to take care of the family.
As of recently, we are still living in an apartment together but are both on side that we should part, as we are both unhappy most of the time. I always told her if we split my goal would be to finally go for a dream of mine that I have had for a long time now, which is the marines ( if I made it the whole way ).
I sent my.application 2 days ago so I told her why, that even tho I earn a decent wage of 30k a year for my age, I'm not happy, the job can go anywhere else, I don't enjoy it, that I want make something of myself and turn myself into, I admitted at first it may seem selfish but it was for a better life down the line for my daughter, to become a better man for my daughter and be able to be someone she is proud of.
Of course she doesn't understand, and after agreeing a few weeks ago that it would be amazing for me, she is now saying I'm selfish, how could I leave my daughter, give my daughter issues for the rest of her life, never see her, never raise her etc. Its just all got me confused because if I stay on my own in the job I'm in without the most of the time anyways the future seems very bleak for my.physical and mental health.
Any ideas on what I should do?
For around 4-5 years I've been considering joining the marines, I am currently 22, have a new born daughter a few months old, and an now recently ex fiancé.
Firstly, me and the ex misses have been basically a concurrent argument for the past 1 and a bit, usually each week or two spending 95% of the time not talking, arguing and then odd smile and laugh.
A few months after finding our we where having a baby I of course asked her to marry me to let her know that she was secure w me and that I wanted her and our daughter, can i add when I asked also ended up having an argument before but never the less I asked because I wanted them in my life and wanted to take care of the family.
As of recently, we are still living in an apartment together but are both on side that we should part, as we are both unhappy most of the time. I always told her if we split my goal would be to finally go for a dream of mine that I have had for a long time now, which is the marines ( if I made it the whole way ).
I sent my.application 2 days ago so I told her why, that even tho I earn a decent wage of 30k a year for my age, I'm not happy, the job can go anywhere else, I don't enjoy it, that I want make something of myself and turn myself into, I admitted at first it may seem selfish but it was for a better life down the line for my daughter, to become a better man for my daughter and be able to be someone she is proud of.
Of course she doesn't understand, and after agreeing a few weeks ago that it would be amazing for me, she is now saying I'm selfish, how could I leave my daughter, give my daughter issues for the rest of her life, never see her, never raise her etc. Its just all got me confused because if I stay on my own in the job I'm in without the most of the time anyways the future seems very bleak for my.physical and mental health.
Any ideas on what I should do?